I struggle with describing my world view. I always thought I believed in Transformational teaching, giving children the freedom and independence to figure things out on my own. As I've been in the classroom, I've noticed myself taking more control than I would like. I'm not to the point of Transmission, delivering information, but I currently rest in a Transactional position and I can't decide whether or not I am content with that.
My schooling has primarily been through Transmission, very lecture heavy and test driven. I think the main reason I have not been able to become a Transformational teacher is because of my past. I am duplicating what I know and have experienced. Transactional teaching is the halfway between what I know and what I want to become, halfway between my past and future. It is representational to where I am in life. All of a sudden, it's becoming clear! Transmissional learning was my past, Transactional teaching is my present, and Transformational teaching will be my future. It's a progression I am working through as I grow as an educator. Fitting with my Transactional status, I need goals to stay driven and active. One of my goals in teaching will be to become Transformational, gaining the trust to let the students guide their own learning.
